Where are you? A Question to Think.

It’s scary to think how time flashes past our lives. We only realize the pace of our time when we look back. Looking back, it’s hard to believe that it has been two years since the previous blog post.

Needless to say, a lot has happened in the last two years. For the better or for the worse, a lot of different experiences have shaped me to be who I am today. You mightn’t notice it but at times only I know. I know my thoughts, how I think, what I value, my motivations and looking back I know how I’ve changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.

I gave up a lot of things back then to disconnect from what was dictating my life. What I gave up, God has only multiplied in multiple folds. The greatest danger position anyone can be in is when God blesses you. Where there are no crises in life; only blessings. When it is so easy to forget God because you feel like you don’t need Him everyday anymore. In the Bible we see many examples of people who had forgotten God even after so many deliverances and blessings.

We see the Israelites in the Bible who forgot their God and went astray – even after experiencing first hand of all the miracles and signs of power in Egypt. Oh how the Old Testament is such a reminder of how we can all be so easily swayed to other “gods” in our lives! God even warned them of it!

When you have eaten and are satisfied, praise the Lord your God for the good land he has given you. Be careful that you do not forget the Lord your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery… You may say to yourself, “My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me.” But remember the Lord your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your ancestors, as it is today.

Deuteronomy 8:10-18

It’s amazing how easily we forget the troubles and struggles that God has lead us through. God has lead us through the vast and dreadful wilderness, that thirsty and waterless land, with its venomous snakes and scorpions. They were all real experiences for the Israelites, but we have had those moments in our lives too. Often we dismiss the hand of God and choose to believe that events happen by luck or coincidence.

Over the years I have come across people who look at my life and say I have just been incredibly lucky with everything that has happened in my life. So many things from a young age. I don’t believe in luck. Nothing in our universe has ever happened or will ever happen by mere ‘chance’. I only believe in a plan carefully crafted by a grand weaver of our universe – our God. I say this not blindly but with experience. I know how grateful I was for all the blessings two years ago and even more now. You might not realise the magnitude of it all…

There was a boy who could barely learn the alphabets, basic words or numbers while his class was miles ahead. A boy taken to doctors to see if there were learning disabilities or if there was something wrong… No one had any high hopes of what will become of him… I was that boy. (It’s a story for another day). Having experienced what God has done over the years, it is still a battle everyday to let Jesus be the captain of my life. It is possible to lose sight of God.

I have become distant from God in my personal relationship compared to where I once was. A person who God would wake up and given strength in the middle of the night to spend time in love with Him; to pray & listen to His words. From that level of intimacy to barely having time to spare for God.

Looking back at my previous blog posts two years ago, I recall when I started this writing. It was to be a beginning of a journey to restore my previous intimacy with Christ and to continue growing. It hasn’t worked out as planned throughout the last two years; but various scarring experiences have shaped me differently. It has not always been Christ bound. If anything, only the opposite.

In my slow progress to restoration, this is a milestone – where I begin writing again. Privately & publicly.

Reading back on some of the notes I’ve written over the years, I came across one that was a question: “Where are you?”

God’s Question to Think

It’s a story from the very first books of the Bible. God walks in the garden of Eden. Scouting for Adam & Eve after their fall, God asks: “Where are you?”

God is all knowing; surely he knew where they were. Hiding from Him. It was not a question that God did not know the answer to; but it was a question for the listener to think. “Where am I? Why am I hiding in this bush?”

God already knows the answers to the questions he asks us in our lives, but it is a question for us to think.

Where are you?

It has been a question for me to think about…